update

Things are a little better I guess. Mil talked to him, he doesn't know I know but he was on the phone with her right in front of me (it was a quick convo and he did not say much) but she confirmed it later. I can tell a little that he is trying to be nicer but still things are tough. We now have a dryer (the electrical problem is fixed) so no more laundromat thank god. We'll see how this weekend goes I guess. That is when most of the problems happen. Last night he was being a little bit of a jerk, so hopefully that won't continue tonight. I never got a happy Hanukkah or card or gift or anything. I already told him when I got nothing for my birthday other than ecards from him and the twins in November, that since he claims he wouldn't care if I didn't do anything for him for his bday, Christmas, etc. that he cold prove that to me because he was not getting anything for Christmas. He is not even getting a Merry Christmas. And if I get a card or gift, I will tell him that he will get his 2 weeks later since MY holiday will have been over for two weeks already at that point. I need a new winter coat and some clothes, I am trying to put off buying it (unless I do and don't tell him yet) because I don't want him to turn around and say that is my gift. I know it all sounds selfish, (when this issue comes up, he makes it out like that) but I am really not a selfish person. I just want to be appreciated, loved and taken care of a little. Is that too much to ask??